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Posted by yesac on June 6, 2005, at 19:01:23
I'm so tired of all of this. I really can't stand it. I don't know what to do about meds or basically about anything. I'm tired of playing the game. I thought lithium was helping me feel a little bit better last week, but now I'm not so sure.
I'm so exhausted which is very depressing in itself. I guess I'm gonna go off Seroquel.
I started this new group therapy today and I hated it and don't want to go back.
My graduate program is suggesting that I leave the program. Well not so much suggesting as recommending that I consider if it's right for me, not to mention that they will be closely monitoring me from now on.
Posted by yesac on June 6, 2005, at 19:07:24
In reply to I feel like giving up, posted by yesac on June 6, 2005, at 19:01:23
I skipped out on work today because I couldn't drag myself out of bed. I have a pretty laid-back job, which is cool. But this exhaustion has just become so severe and I don't know if it's because of lithium (which seems odd to me-- not really considered a side effect, plus I never had that when I was on it a year ago). It would more likely be Seroquel, which is still odd because I've been on that for over 6 months without this problem. It's just so frustrating.
I'm not going to be able to pull this kind of thing (not showing up for work) later in the summer when I have to do an internship.
I really hate the exhaustion. God I hate it. I used to be so energetic.
Posted by Maxime on June 6, 2005, at 20:16:34
In reply to I feel like giving up, posted by yesac on June 6, 2005, at 19:01:23
Hi. I am sorry to hear you are going through such a rough time. I don't like playing the med game either especially when there is nothing left for me to try.
And group therapy can be good if the person leading retains control of the group. I went to one a few months back and there were some hypomanic people there and they just talked and talked and talked. The moderator should have done a better job.
Is there any way you can take a year off from school until you get everything under control?
What is your diagnosis?
Hugs,
Maxime> I'm so tired of all of this. I really can't stand it. I don't know what to do about meds or basically about anything. I'm tired of playing the game. I thought lithium was helping me feel a little bit better last week, but now I'm not so sure.
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> I'm so exhausted which is very depressing in itself. I guess I'm gonna go off Seroquel.
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> I started this new group therapy today and I hated it and don't want to go back.
>
> My graduate program is suggesting that I leave the program. Well not so much suggesting as recommending that I consider if it's right for me, not to mention that they will be closely monitoring me from now on.
Posted by Phillipa on June 6, 2005, at 21:11:05
In reply to Re: I feel like giving up, posted by Maxime on June 6, 2005, at 20:16:34
Do you like your job? Does it have a future? If so then I agree with Maxime. Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by yesac on June 7, 2005, at 12:05:24
In reply to Re: I feel like giving up, posted by Maxime on June 6, 2005, at 20:16:34
Hey Maxime,
Yeah I know what you mean about the "med game". I know there are things left for me to try, but I just don't have much hope that they will work. And it's like people were saying in the thread about the taking-a-new-medication phenomenon... there's often (not always) that little glimmer of hope and/or excitement before you take it.... but with each failure you just feel worse and worse, like there's no hope at all.
I don't like the group therapy for a number of reasons, not so much that I didn't like anyone in the group (although I have had that same experience you describe about people rambling on and on). I just feel disengaged from it, I don't want to do the "homework", someone from my school is in the group too, which I find somewhat mortifying.
> Is there any way you can take a year off from school until you get everything under control?Yes, I could. I'm thinking about taking a semester off, but I haven't really decided about that. In some ways I just want to get it done with, get the degree... but it might be better to wait till I'm in a better spot (if that ever happens) so I could have a better experience with school.
> What is your diagnosis?
>
I guess officially it's major depression, but I have some bipolar features which have seemingly gotten much more severe in the last few years. Also, A.D.D.
Posted by yesac on June 7, 2005, at 12:11:08
In reply to Re: I feel like giving up, posted by Phillipa on June 6, 2005, at 21:11:05
> Do you like your job? Does it have a future? If so then I agree with Maxime. Fondly, Phillipa
Hi Phillipa,
Yes my job is basically okay, but it's going nowhere for me. My job is more related to my undergraduate degree (neuroscience) than my graduate program (social work). I've worked here for about 3.5 years now, full time before I started school, then part time during the past two semesters. Now I'm back to full time since it's summer and I don't have classes. It's easy and laid-back, but it's not the kind of job I would want for my *career*, and like I said, there's no way for me to advance my position.
I'm not even sure how much longer they want me. If I took a semester off, I might be able to work here full time I think. It's an idea.
Posted by Mr.Scott on June 8, 2005, at 1:57:12
In reply to I feel like giving up, posted by yesac on June 6, 2005, at 19:01:23
Have you ever used a stimulant?
Scott
Posted by yesac on June 8, 2005, at 10:59:45
In reply to Re: I feel like giving up » yesac, posted by Mr.Scott on June 8, 2005, at 1:57:12
> Have you ever used a stimulant?
>
I've tried Ritalin, Adderall, and Provigil for attention problems, not tiredness. I didn't really like them, especially Adderall-- messed with my emotions. Plus they didn't seem to help. Provigil did seem to give me a bit more energy though, kind of like caffeine.I might try Dexedrine soon. Also I've been curious about trying something like Concerta because I've heard that people can have different reactions to diff types of stimulants, even if they are basically the same drug (Concerta being the longer acting form of methylphenidate).
Posted by Mr.Scott on June 10, 2005, at 2:22:51
In reply to Re: I feel like giving up » Mr.Scott, posted by yesac on June 8, 2005, at 10:59:45
Also I've been curious about trying something like Concerta because I've heard that people can have different reactions to diff types of stimulants, even if they are basically the same drug (Concerta being the longer acting form of methylphenidate).
----Absolutely True!
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Also it depends on what your taking with it. I seem to do better on a stim alone than with an AD on board with it.
Scott
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